MAMA is unwell

I'm very worried about Mama. Last night, she vomited. * pheeWww *

Gosh… If only I could ease her pain L

 

Dear Mama,

Thank you for being there for us… We are not as strong as we thought when we lost HIM.

You're the strongest among US all. You're our strength to move on.

Thank You Mama for loving US unconditionally….. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

 

Love,

Giselle Syezza

ABANDONED!

I've abandoned this blog since 2011. I guess maybe I should start blogging back. Furthermore, at this time around, I am more expressive than before... THE EMPTY SOUL is walking down the street ........... Dear Blog, I just lost my beloved father, Zakaria Bin Jaffar on 3rd March 2013, 10.15AM in my arms. :'( :'( :'( There's no word I could describe, or express, or say, or .... Losing one's parent really has taught me, how much we've told ourselves to be ready for IT, somehow, when the day has come, it happened and in a blink of the eye, one word - LOST .. !!!!! I LOST myself on that morning... I hardly could remember those faces who came for his funeral. It happened too quick. Just too quick..... The world stopped moving. Everything was silence, so serene... I hear NO voices, not even my own..... :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( RIP Dad... Al-Fatihah... You'd always be remembered Ayah .........................................

End of 2011 ... ~danggg~

OMG.. It has been more than a year I supposed I have not been blogging.
Been busy with studies. assignments. presentations. etc..

Nway,
dated a month me now working at CSOS JB together wit Fara.
It is hard though to work and to study at the same time!
pffttttt~

I guess 2012 by January I shall start blogging again.
Just like back then in 2008.

As the years passed by, it seemed like I am not bothered to keep track of what's happening every single day.

Christmas is just around the corner.
Hell yeah I do miss white Xmas back in Ukraine.

I wished I could turn back time......

~ WISHFUL THINKING ~

2228
17th Dec 2011
v maei' komnate.....

FOP

first day at class
new group - TARRAGON wt 4 othe girls. lia caca syezz n ain

Twilight Saga : New Moon

26th Nov 09..

11AM -

Went to get ticket at CS. Got two tics for HeLmy and Me. Yayy~ Adrenalin rushed.. OnLy God Knows How Excited I was. ReaLLy Can't Wait For The Movie TOnight!
EDWARD, ERE ME COME!!!!!

After 6PM

Rushed Home! Get Ready. Dinner Time.


11PM
New Moon, Ere I Come~~~~~

And it started ..... The Twilight Saga NEW MOON


Part by Part passed. And I was there, sitting, watching...
What The Heck, Edward CuLLen ..??!!?? How Dare You Leaving BeLLa..??!!??
A Lil Bit Disappointed but I knew, there must be a reason for HIM to do such towards Bella..

Jacob..??
HIS body now so musculus! Those 6pax - O M G!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But, Edward CuLLen is still THE HOTTIE! Sorry Jacob!

AM JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU..~ ^_^

Werewolf..??
NOT MA KIND OF THANG~ Who Wanna Be With Hot-Tempered kind of MAN..??!!?? Would end up as DESSERT in the end~ HAHAHAHAHAHA.. So, WEREWOLVES,,,

STAY AWAY FROM ME ........!!!!!!!!

The story goes ...............

" Marry Me, BeLLa" ........................................................



~END~

SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI

Wishing You ALL a Very Happy Hari Raya Haji!

Have a good one!

Huggy Huggy~

Choice and Chance .. Which Path Are You .. ???

I've been keeping this article more than 10 years i guess.

Have a thoughts n it ok..??!!??





When we meet the right person to love when we're at the right place at the right time, that's chance.
When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance.
Being caught up in a moment (and there's a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice. That's also a chance.

The difference is what happens afterwards.
When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level?
That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling.

If you decide to love a person, even with his faults, that's not a chance. That's choice.
When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that's choice. Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's choice.

Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance. But true love that lasts is truly a choice. A choice that we make.
Regarding soul mates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this:�
"Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen."

I do believe that soul mates do exist.
That there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not.
We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mate is still a choice we have to make.

We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love... BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly...



*sighing .....*

Parties In JB ..!!

I've promised Helmi to take him to the RECHARGE PARTY @ DISCOVERY JB.

And I've forgotten about that! Erkk..

He went back to Jb by bus on that Friday.

Honestly I thought the party was on Saturday nyte but it was on Friday.

Gosh.. I was so darn exhausted plus it was RED FLAG MOMENTA! I have not experienced period pain since March 09 due to the holistic cream i applied to myself.

Then my Beloved Aunty of mine, acupunture+massage me, bla bla bla, Chinese traditional way, and bloody hell, Again I started to have the shytty pain!

I was so do not want to go to the party but Dad+Mamyta forced me to bring Helmi there.

Then me go.
Arghh..
Kinda dying with the unbearable pain........

End of RECHARGE.....

The following week, it was MANHUNT COMP at CABANA. THE men all were hotties OK! Am melted alryte~

Just that, at the moment, i am so not into this MAN thingy! I guess I am sick and tired now. hahaha (",)

The question is - AM I SICK & TIRED BEING with MAN ..??!!??

Clubbing moments lately.. GOsh.. I am Bored~

I am bored. I've been clubbing lots lately. Have not done it for quite sometimes since I've NO KAKI to tag along but now... OMG! or should I say,

OH MY SALVATORE FERRAGAMO..!!

I've met KAKIS CLUBBINGS and we all are great together! Yayy~ I guess Im not bored anymore. hahaha.. Mamyta+Dad never said anything also. Even they were the one sent me off to the club. People evolved OK! Wuhuu.. Good thing they both started to adapt and adopt to ME ME..!! I am happy apart of me arguing with mamyta ALL THE TIME nowadays! OMG! the more sins I am compiling since I've been living back at the family house in JB. Erkk.. Not good isnt it..?? But then, I am used to live all by myself and now, people barging in to my room all the time! demmit! I hate it! Hmph.. Again mental stressed~

Next Friday be going to Cabana with my KAKIS to party like animal planet! (",) National Geographi also Lose the battle~ kihkihkih.. and hell yeah, Xmas is soon.
AM thinking on the theme color this year. Maybe I might get a bigger Xmas tree this year cause I'm rich now! Hahaha.. Rich me me haa..??!!??

Money are meant to be spent so ...... SHOPPING SPREE for Xmas 2009~

Yippee..............

Anyone ..?? Wanna Go Shoppin With Me ..??!!??

Silence of The Missing Pieces...

The last I've jotted here somewhere in July. OMG~ Been many months, isnt it?!?! It's not I reluctant to jot it all here but the internet connection sux big time. However today I've decided to jot something cause I am so in need to express what's been trippin inside me all these while.

Tonight I be going to watch New Moon with Helmy. Another midnight date for us. ahaha (",) How nice to have a brother who loves you more than anything in this world. And of course I love him moreeeeeeeeeeeee~ aku kan ALONG! hihihi.. I took the couple seats OK! easier for me to 'bersila". hahaha.. If not, me gonna be 'tersepit'..!! hahaha.. SO fatty me me...

Well, TBL ASIA already started! How depressed I am til this moment also counted OK! Bloody heLL I never got in! I wanted to be in the program so badly! Unfortunately, my audition moment was not good enough for the judges to pick me! arrghh.. I would do anything to get in now if there is still a chance! Ask me to swim with the snake or wormys also I would do now! EWrkk.. More like FEAR FACTOR thing haa.. The Sewelss me lately! huhuhu.

I am waiting for Sharwty Babe to be back In JB! Holla Holla Shawrty babe! Don't forget, Saturday we have a date already! Sorry, we are booked on the Saturday! ahaha ^_^

Owh Owh.. 1st Dec 09 will be my last day at CHFS CS JB. Sad though cause I am comfortable there but the company is so in deep shyt and I hope my Beloved Lady Boss would be OK and got to find an investor so no bankruptcy would happened! I've liked it there already. The team are mad cow disease! ahaha (",) Even we've known each other for a short time but we are like a one big family, happily ever after. Aside the compny personnel issues bla bla bla. We all are good~ Gonna misz them ALL for sure~



I pray soooOOooo hard that 2010 would be a turning point where I could be someone else! hahaha.. Make me an ALIEN, plzz God!~!~! So what if I choose to be someone else..??!!?? ryte..??

I am mad with myself.....~

SisterHood

Sister


Life is too short to wake up with regrets.

So love the people who treat you right.

Love the ones who don't just because you can.

Believe everything happens for a reason.

If you get a second chance , grab it with both hands.

If it changes your life , let it.

Kiss slowly.

Forgive quickly.

God never said life would be easy.

He just promised it would be worth it.

Jenny's Pregnant! - O M G -

Me not so happy actually with her pregnancy.
not ready to have more cats yet! erkk...
bloodyhell male cat! invaded me houz when no one was around! damnit!
aarrghh..
soo irritated in a way though!
what to do..
well,
the babies all would be gone after that.
who want the babies, may holla at me ya!
erhhmm..
maybe tomorrow would take her to the vet for ultrasound.
i really hope she aint pregnant but BUNCHET with wormies!!!
ewwwWWWwWWww..

* finger crossed *

jenny..................... kill kill die die mode

Azzy Tagged aku ekk ... ??? dah berkurun seyy ... ahahaha

1)Bekas kekasih saya adalah..
OPTIMUS PRIME ^_^

2)Saya sedang mendengar..
SONG BY PITBULL - CALLE OCHO

3)Mungkin saya patut..
PEGI GYM DGN HELMY TAPI .......

4)Saya suka..
FIKIR NTAHAPEHAPE lEPAS TU STRESS

5)Sahabat sahabat saya...
SORANG DAH KAWIN, SORANG LAGI BARU ENGAGED

6)Saya tak paham..
NAPE LIFE IS TOTALLY A FREAKIN' BYATCH .. !!! TENSION TENSION

7)Saya kehilangan..
KATA2 BILA ELYN MENGHILANGKAN DIRI DAN TAK BALIK2 SAMPAI SKANG

8)Ramai yang berkata..
MICHAEL JACKSON MATI DAH!

10)Cinta itu adalah..
PSYCHOTIC ALIEN

11)Di suatu tempat,seseorang sedang..
FIKIR PASAL BRG2 KT UMAH KLANG

12)Saya akan cuba..
UTK MELARIKAN DIRI DARI MALAYSIA SECEPAT YG MUNGKIN APA JUA CARA SKALI PUN

13)Ayat SELAMANYA membawa maksud..
DIEDED

14)Telefon bimbit saya..
NTAH KAT MEMANER SEYY. DAH ROSAK PUN HP SONY E TUH. STUPID FON!

15)Bile saya terjaga..
ROKOK.. ROKOK.. ROKOK

16)Saya paling meluat..
ORANG YG MENYUSAHKAN OTAK AKU! GO TO HELL!

17)Pesta/parti adalah..
AGENDA KEHIDUPAN YG AGAK MUSTAHIL UTK AKU TINGGALKAN! ADAKAH ..?? GILER GILER..

18)Haiwan yang paling comel penah saya temui..
BABI PAKAI RIBBONS MASA KT CHRISTCHURCH

19)Peringkat umur yang paling menyeronokkan saya ialah..
18-25

20)Hari ini..
PEGI TGK TRANSFORMER 2 DGN HELMY KT TEBRAU CITY, 2ND TIME NIH TGK! HIHIHI...

21)Malam ini saya akan..
PEGI BLI SANDAL CROCS SINCE GLADIATOR SANDAL GUE TGGL DLM KETE SHAWRTY BABE

22)Esok pula saya akan..
PEGI MENDAFTARKAN DIRI KT OLYMPIA COLLEGE JB. MUNGKIN LAA! TGK MOOD AKU!

23)Saya betul2 inginkan..
HABIS STUDY SMPAI PHD. ISK.. LG STRESS AKU DOK PK NI HAA

24)Ketika anda lihat wajah anda di hadapan cermin pagi ini..
TERKUJAT+BLURR+NANTOK BILE MAMYTA CKP JENNY MGKN DH KENA MKN ANJING! AIYARK..

25)Pusat membeli belah atau arked permainan..
BARU TD GIE DOROTHY PERKINS. BOSAN! TAKDE APER YG CHANTEK

26)Makanan barat atau jepun..
SUSHI ;)

27)Bilik yang terang atau gelap..
DIM LITE.. NOT TOO DARK. EERIE...

28)Makanan segera adalah..
CANCEROUS+OBESITY

29)Ayat terakhir yang anda akan katakan pada seseorang..
" MA, MANE JENNY? "

30)Siapa yang anda ingin tag..
1. shasha
2. Shaleen
3. ity


( takde kawan lain dah! kihkihkih

am alive n kickin'

old pic though, those tubes on me hand when me admitted at PSH. errgghhh...
damnit.. hate it a lot!
instead of me havin tummy cramp, dah jadi super swollen hands.. aiyark..
aint gt time to blog.
bn sick n half dyin'.
then movin' ma thangs to klang houz.
n big day - Shwarty's engagement.
n now only me hv the time to blog.

next week, 7th July me next appointment at PSH.
pray for the best so i dont have to undergo any operation.
saket seyy... adehh.....

someday

had an argument with mamyta. again she pissed me off. dad intended to send me to Philippine. arrgghh ... lemme do wot i want!

again, i said, " ME CANT LIVE WT Y'ALL " !!!!

Got me haa .... ????????????

leave me alone ...........................

fara wat hal

nie lg sekor babi goreng.
bodo. bodo.

tk psl2 aku pukul lg adik aku.
apsal psl jantan ko dgn elin jd bangang sgt?
wot the fuck u seeking from man?

aku tk phm!

mgkn sbb korg dr SETA jg jdkn ko SETAN??
mama+ayah dh naik giler pk psl 2 ekor tapir nie.

tk psl2 plak aku masuk balai police central 5am semlm wat police report.
dh laa gua seramss.. adehhh

shawrty babe, pala gua saket siot........

she might be dead.. she might be alive.. only god knows!!

im in JB now.
my heart+mind are so not at ease.

my lil sista gone missing. it has been more than a week.
she didnt contact me at all.

i pray to god, may she be blessed by you!

honestly,
now onwards, i rather be a lesbian than got involved with a fuckin mankind who is full of fuckin shyt! the more i think about men, the more hatred i accumulated within me!

at the same time, i hate OUR way of lifes in Malaysia, whereas, people still practice the bloody BLACK MAGIC! i know it does exist and do happen but WHY in this millenium era, that shyt still been practiced!?? godamnit~ r u nuts? or stupid??

to YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE,

TUHAN AKU LEBIH KUAT DARI TUHAN LU!
LU INGAT LU GUNE BOMOH SIAM KE APER, GUA HERAN?

Lu bawak lari adik gua gie kelantan. smpai mati aku cari adik aku!
dgn lu skali gua bagi mati!

aku sedey p mane ntah adik aku. dier mmg bodo, lembap, bangang.
bile dh lg trkena ntah aper shyt black magis yg ntahapehape lg bodo bebal adik aku jadik..

tk guner aku bantai adik aku a year ago psal jantan sial tuh.
degil. tgk laa aper dh jd.

if kau mati, biar mati depan mata aku+family! at least aku dpt tgk ko lg.
if kau hidup, afta jumpe ko, aku anta ko gi UK.

pala aku kusut pk!
mane aku nk carik adik aku.

police report dh buat.
tggu je laa aper jadik..

aku dh penat nk nangis pk sl adik aku. even now itself me in tears.
dier tk penah pk psl aku+family.

xde guna aku jd along.
mmg sia2 hidup aku.

sambung nnti laa..

gua emo plak.......

Genting Theme Park

It was raining heavily. Oh my god! Disastrous! T0tally ruin our m0od! We started playin ind0or games. Bumper car. Roller coster. Bla bla bla..

Then rain stopped. Off we go to outd0or. Played swayin ship. OMG! Wanna v0mit! Ahaha.. Me wanted solero shot. T0o bad, close. Saket hati aku! Isk.. Adakah gua naik ferris wheel+merry go r0und. Ahaha.. Thanks to Mia. Hehe.. Dapat jugak gue naik. Kihkihkih..

Well,
My legs gt worse. Hmph.. Am t0o fat n0w. Huhu.. Mayday mayday..

Genting Trip Wt Smartians

I w0ke up at 6.45am. G0tta meet Kukie at the office. H0pe K. Melati c0uld make it to Genting since she has s0me pr0blem at h0me. She would bring her daughter, Mia al0ng. Yeah.. Stupid Ind0nesian maid. Am got so pissed off and straight sent her off back to the agency. Bl0ody maid! Had en0ugh of it! Huhu..

Nway, Kukie dr0ve us to Kl central. Parking was the maj0r issue. I rang Shawrty to ask where should park the car. No answer. Bet she was still asleep. Hehe.. My fwen the sleeping beauty. Ahaha.. At last, after dr0pped K. Melati and Mia 1st, we parked at the RM6. A bit far th0ugh. Huhu..

Went to check the bus ticket. Damn. Next available bus at 11.30am. Nevermind. As l0ng as we get there and have s0me fun times. Well, i kn0w, s0me of them are n0t happy c0z time is limited since bus to Kl at 5.30pm.

Since am the 0ne organized the trip. Fr0m the start, me already kinda fed up with the pe0ple. S0me wanted to go to Bagan Lalang. S0me Sunway lag0on. S0me Genting. Bla bla bla.. Til the end, 0n M0nday, still all have n0t decided, to Genting, to stay or n0t. What in hell then... If all have decided 2 weeks earlier, or at least a week bef0re, i c0uld have g0ne and get the ticket. But then, t0o bad, all decided last minute. So, get thru with it then! Blame me if u want to! I kn0w aint ma fault. Genting? B0san dah aku! Ahaha.. N0w vacati0n m0de, 0nly at island with crystal clear water. Other than that, n0t interested! Hehe..

I didnt do much at Genting, due to my legs injury. Erk.. Wanted to h0p 0n Solero Shot but it was close. Same g0es to corkscrew. Aiyark.. Tensi0n tensi0n.

Owh.. S0me pe0ple buat muka! Ahaha.. Sebab, dpt spend 5hrs+ je kt Genting. Freaking childish. Wakakaka.. Bukan lu ke yg ckp, nk tdo Genting dgn kwn2 mane best;tdo dgn b0yfren lg best! Cheapskate byatch! Do u hv to tell the w0rld that? - that u sleepin wt yr b0yfren?! Bodo b0do. Lg nk buat2 muka mcm babi. Isk.. Gua terajang nanti. Arghh.. Saje nak bagi gua angin. Urghh..

We late f0r the skyway. Means g0nna late f0r the bus. Run pe0ple run! Aiyark.. And guess what? We managed to h0p 0n the bus. But, Warri0r missed the bus! G0sh, stress aku stress! Driver bus pun mcm babi! Kurang ajar bt0l! Haram j! Kukie pun stress. Driver ni heartless nk mamp0s. Cruel. Warri0r pegi t0ilet. Damnit.. Rase nk blasah jek org tua tu. Nway, apa we all buat coz saket hati. We k0t0rkan bus. Buang all sampah sarap. Terbalikkan makanan. Padan muka lu driver bodo! Gua terbalikkan mi h0on lg. Gua lg jahat! Ahahaha..

Nway, had nice time at Genting. Eventh0ugh s0me pe0ple sh0wed the negative aura. Especially with Mia ar0und. Hehe.. Babysitter la pulak aku! Weee..

Part 3-maxis family day

Ph0to sessi0n. Hehe.. As i said, it was so h0t. The sun shines so brightly. Me have n0t en0ugh hands to h0ld the d0or gift and prizes that ive gt. Feather duster pun ade. Ahaha..

Well, thats Maxis! Go0d at having fun! Hehe.. Enj0y enj0y enj0y!